Just an Update

         Gaaah, sorry I haven't posted in almost two weeks. I had birthday stuff going on for a while and other than that I've just been kind of spaced out. Stupid excuse I know, but there hasn't been much inspiration on what to write on so I've just avoided it. I don't want to make pointless updates like this one often, but I just felt I needed to tonight. Guess I'll just touch briefly on what I've been up to lately. Because people care, right? (No, no they do not.)

          So yeah, like I said I had birthday business for a while. I am now, officially, legally, no longer a child. Had my 18th birthday last week. Usually I don't make a big deal out of my birthday but I kind of felt the need to go all out this year. Had a big ol' party at my dad's house, got tipsy with some of my close friends and family, and had a really awesome night. Here's a link to a video of the few moments that were recorded. Fun times were had by all. I'm really glad I decided to have a party this year. Especially since something (I don't feel like going into what) really upset me just a day or two prior to my birthday and I nearly canceled my party so I could stay home and mope instead, but I didn't and it ended up being just the pick-me-up I needed.
          Since then there was Easter celebrating, and then I've just been trying to get my bearings back. I'm still in the process of applying for a grant, which is a total bitch and incredibly annoying, but necessary. It feels like I'm just at this weird stand-still while I try to figure out my future education. I hate the times in life where you just have to wait and there's not really much to do, know what I mean? Having to wait for something to come to you or happen that you can't really influence is one of the most frustrating things I'm having to deal with lately. I'm an incredibly impatient person and when I want something, I want to work for it. When I can't, I get this build up of energy that just turns into being frustrated with not being able to influence my own situation. At least directly. Bah... I'm rambling.
          On a semi-happier note, I got a new acoustic guitar for my birthday and have been way enjoying that. Since (as I said) I'm just waiting on grant and college stuff to come through, I've been spending most of my time indulging in my many MANY hobbies. I have about six books on loan out from the library that I'm furiously trying to read in time, playing three separate video games, practicing my guitar and bass at least daily, and doing writing practices at least daily. There are just not enough hours in a day for me to spread evenly to all my hobbies it seems. I'm losing sleep over all of this, it's insanity. I'm enjoying it though. At the expense of a real life. Oh well, who needs one of those?

          I'm going to stop here abruptly before I start rambling incoherently to myself, as I do. I'm hoping to post more frequently again soon, I'll make a goal of it. Not that anyone reads this.



          Oh, and here's an accidental picture of my hands from the birthday party. Just because.